ANSIR® Profile: Evokateur / Evokateur / Evokateur
Boss: Evokateur

Without The Will To Live

Don't feel like moving,
Seeing, thinking, speaking,
Feeling.
Don't want to wake up today.

Can't keep from weeping,
Hurting, seething, clawing,
Dreaming.
Can't stay together this way.

The day looks like night,
The night like my room,
Just a dark lifeless place,
Or a cold, lonely tomb.
In corners I hide,
Protecting my mind,
Seeking escape from
Your promising lies.

I'm told I can be
Strong, happy, and free
And all I should do?
'Just listen to me.'
'Swallow this pill,'
Or, 'Drink some caffiene.'
Then, 'Laugh! I'll feel better.'
'Laugh. You'll feel better!'

Laugh - See? All better.
Now go, let me be.

Don't you understand?
I want no advice, and
I don't hear you speak when
You say I'm all right.
I'm not and won't be,
It won't change with words;
I know I've done wrong,
My problem's deserved.

And I don't feel like moving,
Hearing, dealing, working,
Being.
I don't want to hear this again...

And I can't keep from weeping,
Sleeping, or in silence,
Screaming.
I can't do more now than pretend.

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