ANSIR® Profile: Kinsmen / Empath / Kinsmen
Boss: Kinsmen

Unwanted Hatred

Hating no one, except one person,
and having to live with him.

Knowing that it's wrong to hate kin,
but hating anyway.

People say it's sibling rivalry,
just a phase.

Forcing a smile to agree,
yet knowing better.

Hating since before memory,
a deep unforgiving hate.

Trying to ignore and destroy it,
only makes it stronger.

So hiding it to keep peace,
as much as possible.

Thinking of him in the next room,
rips a good mood to shreds.

Knowing hatred is a strong word,
but the only one that fits.

Helpless against views,
which stopped changing.

The view thinks family is love,
and togetherness.

Facing reality is harsh,
for family is arguments and isolation.

Attempting to act happy at home,
is useless and false.

Listening to conversations, turning into arguements,
crushes the soul and makes it close.

Blocking voices and yells out of the mind,
still hearing in the heart.

Not wanting disagreements,
being involved in them all.

All pointless and unnecessary,
doing no good.

Growing to hate the rest,
not just the one.

Fearing the hatred,
hating isn't proper.

Awaiting the year in the future,
graduated and moving out.

Away from family,
more importantly, the discomfort.

Won't hear the arguing,
won't have to participate.

Free from the act,
never the memory.

The pain and the thoughts,
there for life.

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