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Meet Kylie: The cold heart thaws. Life-Purpose: Visionary: to do something significant in my lifetime for the betterment of others. Visionary / Visionary / Eccentrik Profile boss: Visionary

Kylie is on a mission to smash stereotypes while in a season of temporary work. She's very attractive but wears the "daggiest, baggiest, most comfortable clothes I can find along with flat shoes and no makeup" until the last day. Then she dresses in a skirt, heels and full make-up. People generally get the message. To refer to Kylie as independent is an understatement in any language. She thinks for herself, takes crap from no one, and until recently, withheld here intuitive gifts in personal relationships, choosing instead to manage them with pure logic and earning her the title, "Cold-hearted *itch." How she got that way, and more importantly, how she is finding her way out is a story of adventure, pain and everything in between.

Born in Kalgoorlie in Western Australia 24 years ago to a mining engineer and a nurse, Kylie lived a childhood that most adults would even envy. A large insurance settlement following a head-on collision with a drunk driver gave her father the opportunity to chase his dream and build boats, including the 45-foot Fusion that she would call home for two years. After sailing the east coast of Australia, the family settled in Brisbane where Kylie's schooling began. It didn't last long.

Travel. It's one of Kylie's passions and it was born early. At age six, Kylie, her brother Troy, and "Mum and Dad" took off on a 15-month adventure. New Zealand. Fiji. Hawaii. Four months in the United States and Canada, then off to Europe and life in a campervan.

"I have no idea in what order we traveled through Europe for it was so haphazard."

At one point, the van broke down in Morocco (It seemed it was always breaking down somewhere), so her father hitchhiked to Gibraltar for parts to fix it, leaving Mom and the kids to fend for themselves. "Mum would only let us eat canned food, " Kylie remembers, "because the locals didn't use toilet paper." Kylie smiles and says she enjoyed every minute of the travelling, especially "finding out as much as I could about everything." It was an education that would set her apart from other children, because Kylie had grown beyond her peers in many ways.

The other event that set Kylie apart occurred when they got back to Brisbane. Her mother announced a divorce and Kylie took on the role of nurturer. She was only 11 years old. "I grew up overnight - took on the responsibility for everyone. Even when Mum first told us, I was the one who didn't cry, who hugged her while she did, told her it would be ok. " Kylie and her brother moved to the tiny town of Rainbow Beach with their father, "because it was more feasible economically." For two years, she attended a school with only 27 children. She didn't fit in. After that was a 90-minute bus ride to high school. Kylie ran with "the squares" and refused to participate in what she calls "the pack mentality" on the bus, developing skills to push and keep people away. "I got away with a lot because I was too cute for the boys to pick on overly much, and I have one hell of a nasty stare when I'm annoyed. "

Two years later, with the acrimony between her parents deepening, her father went on holiday to Thailand leaving Kylie and her brother with a friend. Her mother whisked them away to Brisbane for good. Kylie blossomed amidst the diversity of a metropolitan atmosphere. Armed with superior intelligence and street smarts far beyond others, she skipped school often but managed to scrape by for graduation. Over the next few years, Kylie's life consisted of jobs, university (she calls it "Uni"), and relationships with men, the first being 22 years her senior. As she got older, the internal war between logic and intuition intensified, especially in relationships. Logic won. No mess. It was clean.

With the warmth of emotions buried in logic, Kylie appeared to others as cold, calculating and a control freak. But she argues that was only on the surface, "I guess the main point is that I've never been cold hearted in fact, only in approach. It seemed fairer." But beneath the surface lurked fears that, even today, are threatening.

"Definitely, I've always been afraid of losing the understanding of an equal once having gained it. I'm definitely scared of becoming so emotionally involved as to really be hurt. Self-control is very important to me, and always has been."

Then came Mr.X, and Kylie let her guard down long enough to fall in love. When they finally split two years later, Kylie blamed herself and fear of using her intuition. "I've never had problems using intuition at work, but the fear of manipulating somebody close to me by using emotions or intuition has always been a problem. With him, it cost me somebody I truly felt was Mr. Right."

So Kylie intensified another adventure of hers, this one of self-discovery. She wound up on the Ansir Web site and experienced a burden-lifting revelation while reading the in-depth Profiles.

"The first thing it confirmed to me was that I AM an intuitive person and that it was okay for me to use it in any way. I'd been trying to use logic alone and had been having major difficulties with it. And all because I refused to communicate using my emotional knowledge for fear of using it the wrong way! What Ansir has taught me is that because my intentions are always good, because I don't expect anything in return for what I give, because I do only what I want, it is ok to use the knowledge I gain through intuition."

She also began to accept that it's okay to be vulnerable, and that such vulnerability has endearing qualities. "It's funny, but another thing I learned was that admitting to the vulnerability only seems to increase my inner strength, as well as make me perhaps a little less intimidating to others."

"If I had one wish, it would be to have discovered the Ansir site a few months ago, so I could have avoided this mistake. Not the "mistake" of loving someone, but the mistake of driving them away by refusing to act on my intuition, while it was still possible to do so. The Visionary lesson, learned Ö"

Kylie is writing a book she hopes to finish in November. In many ways, it will reflect on her own life and what she's learned. Meanwhile, she'll keep testing boundaries with people and smashing those stereotypes. It's more than just a fun game with Kylie. It's why she is here.

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